It has been a long ,long while since I shared a little bit of myself honestly from this blog. I suppose I have been a bit to busy or pre-occupied to do it.
Something i have been mulling over for a while now is the time I spend completely alone. It is about ten years since I had time alone without anyone. There have been moments when i have escaped to go shopping or had an odd evening but recently this time has increased due to my youngest daughter starting pre-school. Because this time is in the week and in the day it seems as though I should be doing something constructive with my time. Alternatively on the weekends I have no problem with wasting the time away shopping.
I have too say this new found freedom is a a little UN-nerving. I have this panic feeling inside when each new day begins that I should do the most exciting activity. I simply cannot waste the day at home pottering. I suppose this comes from not being able to do this for such a long time there is a bit of a pendulum effect going on in my life......one extreme to another.
It is one thing staying at home when there is children about but when the house is empty it just feels all wrong. I can't decide if I either need to get used to this feeling or get out and just work somewhere else. I am sure from all the blogs I read this a common feeling but I suppose truthfully do I really believe that running a home is a valid job by itself ???
On the plus side my bathrooms are being cleaned more regularly and the skirting boards are free from dust..........but you have to ask yourself.. "there must be more to life than a spotless house"